A Strong Wise Loli Wizard

Beatrice from Re: Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu
No need another explanation, I love her because of title. ^_^

Blogger Mobile

Hello there, for anyone who is purposedly or not peeking my trashbin haha.

So I try to use blogger app for android again. Last time I tried it, it looked bad that I cant even use it properly. But this time is better so I post this to test it out.

Apparently with this app I can easily update my blog, I wonder if I can upload my artwork with this too.
Anwhow-
I feel like this place little by little will become my diary as well, since another site has become more public, feels bad if I have to ruin people's day with my bad thoughts. Negativity

It probably a warning also, to you who peek- I dont even care anymore if anyone see this place or not.... It'll always be my trashbin huh.

So.. well, I hope at least this place will be nice place of me to rambling around sometimes.
Not that I want someone to help.
Not that I want someone to do something.
And I'm really fine even if you dont care nor have any sympathy.
I just want to tell a story, whenever I cannot tell it to anyone.

Sketch, Sketch Everywhere

How one little thing can ruin my mood so badly. When doing request but isn't being appreciated, that's it. Enough to make me wasted the entire day because lacking of motivation.
Got so many sketches to finish, and most of them is related to other people.

Think I've done stacking WIPs lol, I should finish them one by one now, will do it for practicing as well. Hope my feeling doesnt get high and down again in short time, hopefully.

"FAILED" Projects

I tried to look at old folders, and there're so many unfinish ones that I don't even want to continue again because of failures here and there. Just no :")
So I just put it here for archive, this place is my trash bin remember? :^)

Monster?

I suck at making monster lol, the hell. New pokemon? 

Searching for Answer

To be honest I really in not good state recently. My mind get so messed up, and it's getting worse and worse I don't know how to fix it. All that keep me alive is only drawing. So I might not saying much for now and just throwing all my sketches here.

"I'm gonna work hard and die fast."


Anw, this one is just a bunch of Arzu exploring.

More Doodles

There is so much thing I want to draw, and they are all ended with messy sketches. All in one day, designing costume, fanart, and stuff. Hope I will finish fanart ones, you sure know which one, do you? ;)

Pandora Hearts - Oz Vessalius

This is why I barely draw fanart, I cant make it similar like the original. T_T
Nevertheless, I enjoy drawing him. Inking and toning practice

Built The Mood

My mood swings is really bad this week, I can go to happy to sad to angry to happy again in such short time. Not to mention losing motivation to draw so much. God

I can't be like this forever, I should try to build the mood to keep drawing. I must keep drawing.
That's why I try to continue old doodle, like this Kingdom Hearts fanart is finally complete lol. To be honest this make me feel better. Thank God

Nothing will be done

It's been two days already and I didnt make any progress, so I'll just put it here.......

I'm losing motivation again. again.

Something to Comfort

"The cat's programmed to be like 707."

"The 707 that jokes around all the time and is always bright."

"If something happens to me... I hope this robot comforts you a bit." 

Good Ol'Doodles

I just opening my notebook again, then I found all these doodles scattered all over it lol.
Doodle in the middle of class while listening to lecturer, or didnt listening at all LOL.
Nevertheless, they're being one of my treasure now. ^^
So I'll just keep it here~

Flawless - Elios

A fanart of webtoon comic Flawless, Elios.

Not really satisfied, not sure if I want to coloring it fully or just make another one. Nevertheless, here's the fanart. :)

Ikemen Practice

Just a bunch of... bishie, ikemen? at least not shota lol.
OCs (c) each respected authors.

OC and Flower

At last, I finally finish this project.

All my thanks to participated authors for lent me their OCs.

The OCs from top left to down right and their flowers:
1. Yovano - Red Rose
2. Mei Rin Rin - Peony
3. Leo - Camellia
4. Lelia - Laelia
5. Velvette - Lilly of Valley
6. Kana - Lotus
7. Clark - Lily
8. Flone - Red Sunflower
9. Rei - Alstroemeria
10. Selig - White Snapdragon
11. Summer - Sunflower
12. Kanzen - Chrysantemum

Please enjoy :)

 

Stress Reliever Doodle

I actually enjoy drawing my devil children, especially their eyes that don't reflecting lights. Just darkness.

 

S for Sergey - Scripta

I just feeling the urge to draw them few days ago, another doodle. Doodle is fun lol

The Demon Butler Sin

Hello hello hello!

This is my new OC, I made it for RP group thing at first, but I plan to use him in my story too. So maybe I won't spoil so much info wahaahah.
All the basic info is just Sin is from servant family, his family used to serve for higher class of race. Once they make a contract with their master, they will obligated to serve and protect until the master die. The contract they have to make when choosing a master is very strict. Once you make a contract, you literally giving half of your life to your master. There's no excuse for a failure of protecting the master.

Anw, this is the character sheet for the group.

 

WIP - Exploring colors

Soooooo the title said much enough lol.

I'm still trying to figure out how to skin coloring nicely really-- It's confusing, my sense of color is just ugh. 

A free req because a friend help me find app for recording screen, this is her OC. 

I thought I can finish this tonight.. but no, impossible, and I have to get back to work tomorrow. But I'll definitely finish it. Hopefully not so long. orz

God there's so many I want to draw, yet no time, no energy, no skill yet lol.

 

Yearning for The Angel's Calling

........Just pretend I'm practicing expression and stuff, but this OC is really suited with this kind of atmosphere. Oh look, I made another one. 

Doodling and random drawing are really entertaining sometimes~

Oh, I didn't post this new OC;s info yet, did I? Well maybe I will after this. Stay tune ;)

My Eternal Crush

When I was kid, I really like Saiyuki anime. I've been looking on it like at everywhere, even at junior high school's library, there's anime magazine that put info about Saiyuki. It continues and I was collecting the DVD series when I was in senior high school, Saiyuki-Reload-Gunlock, 3 seasons and keep looping them on my TV lol. Never enough with them.

And now the DVDs just nowhere to find, then I start to collect the series again! In my laptop of course! with new HDD I bought for my anime collection and backup. To be honest it's quite difficult to find that old anime, it still being pain in the ass-- especially when you have such unstable internet connection. Still struggling to collect them all.

When I try to rewatch them again nowadays, it brings so much nostalgic feelings to me. The fact that I can't really leave this fandom, this is the only thing that can make me buy their ori merchandise, collecting all about them. Moreover, this is also one of fandom I dont want to ruin by making their sexual orientation gone wrong hahaha! Not only because this is my childhood anime, but also their relationships are just fine like that! It's perfect actually. O(-----(

Probably the main reason I keep go back into this fandom, because I really like this Goku character. He's sooooo adorable, my kind of shota. <3
Mostly people will draw fanart of their fave chara, but long ago I was so afraid to draw him because my lack of skill I will ruin his face lol. :"")

Even until now, but really, sometimes you just want to try it for real, dont you?
Though I failed, the real Goku is far awesome than this. Screw me.

Trio Concordia

Finally I have fixed costume for them, with help of my friend designed it. (Not for free of course)
Three of my OCs stock formy story, Mystic. They are barely seen, people mostly only find their voices, singing a folk song throughout the forest or any other open places. They're using different languange than common people in CapellAtria (my created world), only those who learns ancient languange could probably understand what the meanings behind that beautiful melody.
I always imagine that their songs will be like Yuki Kajiura type, haha.

The hair color my friend put is wrong anyway, they supposed to have black hair like this below. xD

Undertale - Napstablook

Recently I'm trying to play Undertale. Well finally, after only seeing it in youtube and stuff, I tried to play it by myself. It was great actually, eventhough you already know the endings, it still fun to do it by myself. I choose Pacifist run in the first play, and planning to do it again. And I dont want to ruin it by choosing Genocide one, so I'm just checking it out in youtube lol-

The characters there are mostly fun and unique, and my favourite one this gloomy little spooky DJ, Napstablook~

The Cursed Flower

The reason why Scripta's hair have two colors, it's because she has been cast by curse spell. When her parents died in ship accident, they were escaping from Death Eater who tried to kill them. The Death Eater succeed to kill the parents, but the daughter stays alive with lifetime curse in her. Her blueish hair color is a sign of how near she is to the death itself. If it keeps growing and her hair color has change into completely blue, you know what's gonna happen.

pose reference used.

My Little Flower

Hello hello helloooo I haven't update anything since long eh, because I didn't finish anything- Except those illustration for job, yes.
But I DO doodling here and there, some stuffs, and most of them is about my pottermore OC, Scripta~

I'm doing roleplaying with my friend, and sometimes I can't help to doodle her expressions. Like when she get embarassed by her partner, all the time. :))

She has study in Hogwarts for 4 years now, according to our rp timeline.
Like I ever said back then, on the fourth year, Scripta cut her long hair into this length.

Loneliness

Which's worse, to be ignored or to be judged by the people around you?

What do you think happened if some people don't get along like they used to do?

Which's easier, to blaming others or blaming yourself?

Which's worse, ask other people for advice or ask the related person directly?

Which's better, crying for help or desperately fighting by yourself?






What should I do?

The negativity is always in the form of question, and it never find the true answers.
Because no one to be asked.

And that's why it will always linger in your heart.

Hyacinthoides Non-Scripta

Just my Pottermore OC, Scripta.
On fourth or fifth year in Hogwarts, she will cut her hair. She looks good both with long and short hair, don't you think. :3
Her name was picked by Bluebell's name, Hyacinthoides Non-scripta. Bluebells have long been symbolic of humility and gratitude, and this flower represent her. At least that's what I'm trying to do. ;)

Swap Personality

I made it for DeviantArt contest that said to draw their OCs.
But I got mistaken, like really fatal mistake. Their personality get accidentally exchanged by my own misunderstanding. Stupid me, I drew it with so much effort after all. ;(
Since there's nothing I can do, I'll just use it for portofolio thingy. Meh

Detective Arzu

Still hype in TEW, I made my son wearing Joseph's suit. hahah XD
A little one hour refreshing from work.

A Gift from a Friend

Enough said.
This made me happy, I'll keep the plastic eventhough it already dirty with chocolate. lol
Thanks for remembering me. .u.

The Evil Within - Joseph Oda

One day I was watching Pewdiepie playing horor game The Evil Within, but sadly he never finish the game, and I already in very curious state to watch the whole story and gameplay. Soo I decided to watch Markiplier version instead, he has very complete TEW series, including those DLCs.
When I realized, I'm already fell in the story and characters, especially the relationship between two detectives there, Sebastian and Joseph (Mark used to call him Jojo).
I did some research by reading more information from wiki, because I'm kind of lost track of the story. It's just the game don't explain it bluntly and I'm too careless to catch little hints here and there lol.
One thing that make me can't really leave this game is the fact that Jojo didn't make it to get out of STEM! Poor Jojo :(((

He's my favourite character of all, following with main chara, Sebastian Castellanos.
I just like the strong bond between them, such great partners, especially when Seb never give up of him, even when Jojo tried to kill himself. I like them most in unromantic way (like, bromance?), though I don't mind reading fanfic in romantic way. Ha!

Suit Project

Finallyy--- 12 heads done, but not the flowers yet. One of my own project, I'm gonna make each of them holding their chosen flower, rose, lilly, snapdragon, etc.
But since it hasnt any deadline, I just continue it little by little. They will be just BW with base color of their hair.

PS. They aren't my OCs

Progressing Some Things

I'm gonna join some art contests while doing book illustration, and commission-- aand my own project.
Doing them at the same time because I get bored so easily lol, hopefully it will done well and on time. Whoa, sneak a peek :)

To The Journey

Since last year, my friend laready request to draw a gijinka of Keroppi, but somehow I just made it recently ahahah.
Enjoy ;)

Exploring New Thing

Actually I really want to try another style than manga/anime style of me, I want to make my own non-manga style as well, especially if I want to work as an children's book illustrator. :D
A little experiencing here and there, still trying.

Anon The Ghost

Long time ago (lol), I said to a friend that I will draw her character because I like it, and here it is.
The name is Anon, and he is a ghost, a hippy ghost? XD

New style of chibi

Uniform Design

This is just my entry to a uniform design contest, and apparently I didn't make it. ^^;
The character belongs to VPComics, I only have the uniform. No stealing ;)

A Goodnight Closing

Another struggling for today, mostly with my own mind and heart. Nevertheless, my hands keep holding the pen and creating.
I want to improve my chibi style, so got some exploration with chibi with neck and without neck lol. I might do both later, but now I made without neck one, making it look more round and chubby, I think that's cuter. Don't you think?

Negativity Strikes Again

Recently, Idk why but I feel like this, inferior, useless, anxiety, the fears. They always come regularly, trying to drag me down to an abyss.

Nevertheless, I'll just put it here.. a fanart of Alice, I offered my friend a drawing for treating me a movie~

just keep drawing, will ya..? *talks to mirror*

Forever Unfinished WIP

Try to look at to the past (lol), I realized... I have soo many unfinished artworks.
I didn't finish them because most of them look fail for me, and I have no desire to fix it further.
So.... I'll just put them here and be the relics. :p

Pottermore OC

Recently, my friends are like to make their new OC, based on Pottermore website.
So they took a test from Sorting Hat, then they will make a character who will enter the chosen House.
For me, I got Ravenclaw ;)

So this is my new OC, named Scripta Clementine.
A 12 years old girl who just enter Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. There is a test for choosing your magic wand too, and I got Hazel wood with Dragonstring core ,12,5 inches and have slightly springy flexibility.
She has a black cat as her pet, named Nox. And here's a bit info of her:
Personality:
- Ambivert
- Animal person
- Easily impressed
- Adventurous
- Curious
- Emotional
- A bit tsundere

Likes:
- Flying with broomstick
- Dragon
- Riddle
- Hazelnut

Dislike:
- Stingy people
- Swimming
- Slimy things

Art Trade

You know from the title, ahah!
An art trade with one of my artist friend.
This is her OC, or her phone Gijinka, named Evee. :D

More Gift to Friend

Apparently I lost my way(again) of coloring, I think I should make a notes for myself to keep the same coloring style for every style I try, like cellshade, painting(kinda), etc.
When I know what to do in the first place, it takes shorter time to finish one art don't you think-

Soo.. a friend's birthday is coming, and I made another fanart, for my friends. Eventhough I never know what they're thinking about me. But whatever, be sincere. :'D

Enough talk
This is her OC, Arra.
Happy Birthday ~

30 Days HTF Challenge #8

8. Your One True Pairing

Finally I continue this challenge again lol
Aaannd yes! For me Splendid and Flippy are fit to each other.
I like Splendid because of Flippy
I like Flippy because of Splendid
Without one of them, that would be duuulll

Pose reference again! here

Trio

Just got great pose references from here.
So I tried to draw the characters that seems to fit with the poses, and here is one of them.

A trio soldier of mine and my two friends,based on HTF, we called them Happy Three Friends. hahaha
As maybe you already know, they're soldier, and soldier wanna-be lol
The poses are really representating them, so I was happy to make this.

Angel of Happiness

So many people I know in cyber world.
So little people I can talk with.
And she's one of them, one of reason I have to keep stay in touch with those who talk with me.
Happy Birthday :)

Edenia (c) worldofyasha

PS. I did trace the cake btw so don't sue me. Lol?

Art Trade and Gift

Finally trying to draw girls again, got Art Trade with my friends~ these are their OCs.

Issei Rozamond (c) Hamzah Abdillah Yusuf
Legi (c) Yukarin Hooseki
Agnette (c) Chiyo Parasta

Happy Smile

To be honest, I prefer the innocent happy smile of him. :)

The Half Brothers

First art of the year!
I've been playing Grand Chase online game although I'm not regular player, but since the first time I played it, there's one character that really caught my eyes.
The name's Lass Isolet, he's a Thief as it's his first job in the game, but he will be a Striker in the fourth job and it's awesome! Aside from him in the game, his appearance is one of my typical favourite too, an assassin-like and white hair.. that's just too hngg

At first, I have no idea that Rufus is Lass' older brother until I try to play the game again after few years of hiatus. It makes me surprised and reaally curious about what really happened in the game story, thanks to Wiki, it gave me so much information that I need to admit that Rufus is his half-brother.

Nevertheless, I'm sooo happy that I can finally make fanart of them. And since he has an older brother now, which is Rufus, he becomes my favorite too hahaha. 

Actually I want to draw one more my favorite character, but since he's not related to them at all.. I can't make them in one frame. Not now, at least, because I want to show that they're brothers in this drawing.
He is Jin Kaien, he's so powerful and easier to play than Lass if I may say. But if you ask me which one my most favorite, I still choose Lass. ~

PS. All the characters, Logo, and Symbols are belong to KoG